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| Inner Conflict |
| Friday, December 14, 2007 |
Again, the same thing happen again! Exteremely relax one day before my last paper during the daytime, but begin to become more anxious and stressful during the night time. I know the underlying reason but i simply cant help with that. I'm relax because normally i've done my study one or two days before the date of exam. On the other hand, I'm anxious because i'm being too relax.
There's once when I had only extremely short period to prepare for my exam, strangely, the symptoms gone. Eventhough it was stressful as I had to worry whether i could finish it on time or not, but at least, I felt less guilty. Everyone is study hard right now, but i'm the only one who's relaxing since this morning, doing all the silly things-watch drama, arrange luggage (for sunday trip), clean up my room and etc.
Strictly speaking, I'm not trying to show off now, as i dun realy feel proud of myself. It's really tiring for not having a nice sleep the night before exam. It sounds reasonable for those who haven done their revision to have insufficeint sleeping hour, but how bout those who have done their revision yet still suffering from insomnia? Perhaps, i shouldnt use 'those', i think i'm the only one who experience this in this world. What an idiotic person i am!
I had found a solution- Leave eryting to last minute, and burn midnight oil. Unfortunately, it contradicts with my personality. I don't like to do last minute work since it's not 'secure'. The need to feel secure had 'conquer' my mind. I duno whether i can sleep or not later, but hopefully i do. I ll try to glance through all the notes again before i go to bed. This's the only way to reduce my anxiety level and guiltiness. God bless me....sleep sleep sleep
*Thinking of an old friend now, at this particular moment* |
posted by li @ 12:55 AM  |
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